wikipedia! wait for me!

My biggest fear is to leave this world without accomplishing something that would change lives!
Now that this is the umbrella that I'm living under, people embrace yourselves!
Wikipedia, get ready to mention my name!!

What's your worst nightmare?

Imagine waking up one day in a room with Monica Bellucci without your penis!

Imagine yourself in a supermarket with 3 nosy children, yours! 

Or imagine you’re 82 but with no children! Or… imagine losing a child…

Imagine drowning in sand, or jumping off a cliff to land on a sharp object, or being in a lake with alligators or even worst… walking through a dark deserted building, opening a door and falling all the way down in the dark… and landing on a sharp object!

Imagine your husband cheating on you, or an ex who made your life miserable is chasing you…

Imagine you are buried alive! Or you are trapped on a planet with killing machines everywhere!

Imagine you’re walking in slow motion, and a dog is attacking you and tearing you into pieces!

Imagine someone you love… died

I bet I can go further with my imagination and create a whole lot of  “scary” things… but I am rational enough to know that everybody is doomed to die, a love will end, and I may or may not have children…

Still my worst fear of all will be to sleep having nothing to be scared for!

Finding my purpose

My name is Fidele and I’m…

Well, my resume says I’m a creative director; at least that was my last title.

My social status says I’m a married woman, happily I might add.

My passport says I’m Lebanese…

And so far I have been happy. My passion for life, for love and for work has made who I am today, at 31.

I live under one obsession: accomplishing something before I die.

And so far, I haven’t done that yet.

Something has happened on my way to do so; I have lost my purpose and my drive.

And I’m looking for the thing “I love” in life. I’m looking for that accomplishment.

I just realized that so far, I have been doing the wrong career choices. It was always about accepting passively the opportunities that presented themselves to me, but never about where I planned to be or where I worked hard to get.

I am a creative person, that’s for sure. I have used that creativity in every aspect of life, and this is what made me happy I guess, and this is what made me interesting.

But now, I’m living under the impression that my creative juice, in advertising, is drying out. I have been freelancing for 6 months now and unfortunately I haven’t been challenged enough to improve my thinking process or my art skills.

This is why I’m heading towards an area where my creativity is more than just “enough”, but instead where it has an added value, and where I can excel and accomplish what I haven’t accomplished so far.

The situation in Lebanon is horrible. This country is depressing.

 This is why my next step towards finding passion is to leave this country.

The 2^nd step is to put my career back on track.

I want my education and 10 years experience not to go in vain, but to complement them with a NEW & INTERESTING area where I can excel.

Therefore, at the beginning of this year, I am challenging myself to achieve the following:

-       Go study abroad something new and interesting

-       Have a baby abroad, and that would be the cherry on top of my beautiful relationship with my husband J

-       With a degree in hand, put my career back on track in a reputable international agency

-       Most importantly, while doing so, eat less and exercise more JJ

-       Pursue the little things that make me happy: designing watches & bags, writing, reading, and photography!!

That’s it! I finally made my new year’s resolutions. It feels good to know what you want and where you’re headed!

Cheers to you if you have been on that path too, I know it’s foggy and unpleasant.

To 2014 being fabulous!